God has been so kind to me!!

The gap between my previous blog and this one reflects the time i had to leisurely sit and update my blog... After my cat aka disaster it would be a lie if i say i wasnt bothered at all about it. I was, i had all reasons to be. I messed it up and i am solely responsible for it. But now i know by wat everyone says that cat is something that depends on D-day.

After my exam people who claim to be my well wishers came around comforting me, treating me as if i have just lost my whole life. I just responded with a smile but my heart was screaming them to get lost and i didn't need their pseudo sympathies. I was cursing my luck and my heart was always chanting ... i'm so unlucky that i have to join Deloitte now. But after i gained my right senses i just ran through those lines again.. "Lady Luck didn't favor me and so i have to go to Deloitte". Anyone reading this will call it my arrogance. I also think the same now.

I still remember the day when our placement cell member called me and told me on a tuesday when i was at trivandrum that Deloitte was coming on friday... Alarm bell started ringing.. this was the company that i was waiting for... i expected it to come only by dec,07 and it was just june. So i left for cochin on thu m'ing with viral fever. I sat in the train wrapped up in a blanket and i could barely open my eyes. On friday m'ing i went to college in the morning on high medication so that i could atleast stand up. My throat was bad and i had lost my voice. Watching the presentation made me want to get into the company more than ever. I sat down for the 1 hour test. It was horrible when i started out. I could feel my dream company slipping rite thru. But when i started out the math problems in the 2nd page i could feel that unknown power coming to me and helping me out. Every option i randomly chose and substituted would end up being the right one. I knew that God didnt want me to lose out so easily. I sailed through the test and the 2 levels of interview. The results were announced at 10 pm and i was there as 1 of those 10 students out of the 26 who made it to the 2nd level interview.

And after passing through that experience i say i'm unluckyIt was by luck that i got in. I know many students in my college and also in other colleges who were really interested to get into Deloitte. If they had been in my situation they would have been so happy with what they got.

But all of us are like this.... We always think of what we have not got.We win some we lose some. We never give it a thought of how lucky we are... God has given us lots of things that are just dreams for many others... food, shelter, wonderful parents that we have and above all 2 hands, 2 legs, 2 eyes and all other parts of our body that are in perfect working condition. If we get chance to be close to some of the less fortunate ones we will find that they consider us so lucky and place us in a position close to God Himself.
God has been so kind to me.. He has blessed me with the most wonderful parents in the world, who gets me anything in the world i ask for. They have sent me to the best school in the city without which i couldnt have written this blog in this language. They have made me the person I am today. And here i am thinking of something that hav gone a little wrong and cursing God and everything around me. Actually, i deserved it... A small fall is necessary when u have been on a winning streak for a few years. Yes, everything had been so perfect for me since i came to MEC. By God' grace i have been passing each sem with good marks... Then came the placement seasons and i have got into the 3 best companies that i have attended. Apart from all these i have been able to meet so many wonderful people from different walks of life during these 3 years.

When i sit back and think what i want to do... Now i know what i really want to do. I want to work... but not as another software engineer and spend my whole life in a cubicle earning fancy salaries and not even having an hour a week to spare to enjoy the beautiful things around me. I want to work to help those people who has not been as fortunate as me ... Who doesnt have the ability to hear the beautiful sounds we hear, to see the world around us and who cant even utter a word. When i think of those people i feel guilty. We all should feel guilty if we are not using those talents and blessings that God has showered upon us coz we are one of his few favourite children.

Most of us get impatient when we sit with our eyes closed for 10 minutes. Imagine the lives of those children who have come to this world with nothing but darkness in their eyes and have to live throughout like that. It's not their fault. It's no one's fault. But if we can make a difference for such children who are handicapped or have no one to care for them, we shouldn't miss any oppurtunity to do so.

Its easy to say or type as i have done saying that i am going to help to make the world a better place for them too. I should be practical when i say this and i know that nothing in this world comes for free.. We need money for everything, even to go around for this cause. So even if anyone sees me working after,say, 10 years pls understand that i have not come up with enough resources to support my family and my dreams for the entire life left. Its not that everyone should stop doing wat they r doing and go about serving the soceity but each of us can make a small difference by doing our small part in wat ever way pleases us for this big cause ...