MEC.... the place that happened to me by mere chance

January 26.... I didnt even notice that more than half of the 1 st month of this new yr is over until now.... I was soooo busy these days. But when i look back and take account of the productive work that i have done, its a big zero...

I wonder wat the idea behind writing blogs are.... Coz these days this serves as an open diary for me....
The last semester at Model Engineering College started .... It will b almost over in 3 weeks time.... When i think about leaving this place i feel a bit sad somewhere deep inside which actually surprises me... This was one place that i thought i will never feel sad to leave.... But now i am so used to this place that it will be hard for me to get out of it... But thats me... And i feel thats a big problem with me... It takes me lot of time to get attached to a place or person... But when i get emotionally bonded i cant let go of it.... That particular person or place transforms into my whole world.... I can stay for ever in that closed shell... I dont like anythin coming inside and going outside...

Never ever in my wildest dreams did i think that i will spend for years for my degree course in cochin.... This place was nowhere in my academic map.... I was sure that even if i get some 35k odd rank i will make it into some college in trivandrum city itself.... But then even wen i cud have studied just 5 km frm my home i choose MEC. Thanks to my dad's sis who promised me that i will never regret my decision... And now with just a few months to pass out i dont regret my decision to be part of this wonderful instituition..
I didnt even hear of MEC till i reached my 12th... PPl back home ask me my college and i try to limit it saying that i m studying in Cochin. Then they will have look in their eyes (contempt, sympathy... i dont know wat. I never felt it was going to affect me in anyway wat ever they think). Some even ask me, 'poor gal, how come u didnt get admission into even a single engg coll in trivandrum'. Even now wen ppl stare at me blank faced after hearing my college's name, i don't feel any change of feelings towards them as i was in that same situation a few yrs before...
But this college was one of the most wonderful thing that has happened in my life... I still remember the first day in college so vividly... I used to hate my college those days with the ragging, the separation from my family and everything.... But i learned to live alone, to be independent, to regain my lost confidence, to gain frnds, to lose some, taste of victory, failure...Everything has happened to me in these 4 yrs which has made me the person i am today... I am so proud to say now that I am an MECian...

I cant stop saying about my engg days without mentioning thrikkakara temple... Thats the place that i visit a minimum of 3 times a week.... I feel like home once i go there.... The person sitting inside like my mentor, frnd, parents, grandparents and everything together.... I have never been spiritual during my school days... But when i was rooted to cochin i used to feel so lonely. Even though i have many frnds, only a handful who are very close... And i vent out my frustration, happiness and anger on them... which do sometimes have negative effects also... I understood that i am being too selfish if i depend on them alone coz they also have the same and more probs of their own.... Its futile to go discussing everythin to ur parents as it will only add to their woes about us.... So thats how my Neighbour who lives 1 km away frm me became the whole world to me.... When i am happy or sad, thats the place i will b at .... And thats the time that i can speak about myself, weigh and see what all i did was rite or wrong.... And there is a miracle in that environment... When one goes and completely include Him, He will help u with a solution for everything.... Thats true... I have experienced it... Not once, many times... All u have to do is be sincere to u and others around u..

Wen ever the image of my coll comes to my mind, the temple is also included as its the place that i hangout the most apart frm coll... So regularly that everyone in the temple premises also acknowledges me... This will be one place I am going to miss the most wen i bid adieu to this great city.... And of course MEC which made cochin such a great city for me.... My college rocks!!!

New Year!!!

This new year kick started with good news for me :)... My JMET results came out yesterday.. 345.. that's my All India Rank.. Just now praying that the whole of the new year will be as good like this....

I guess i badly needed to put up a decent score in atleast 1 exam .... Co z i myself was starting to feel discouraged ...

But i guess what is destined for us will come to us .... We needn't run around or search for it.... We just need to stay calm and be ready to accept it ....